Why wouldnt you have one?

I mean honestly? Why would anyone not want to have one of these to enjoy? I've no idea what kind of parent I am going to make, how can anyone? But I do know that right now, when he's just shy of 4 months old, he brings so much joy to our little family.

Yes he can be a lot of work but you do that willingly. Because he's part of you. Because he gives you a reason to exist. Something to justify all the other crap that you go through. He's your chance to engender all those ideals that you've spent the last decade creating. He's so many things it's hard to get across just what it is that make him so special.

Then again, this is not something I could imagine or theorize about before the event. All those couples out there making the choice not to have kids are working on minimal information. But then noone is ever going to suggest you have kids just to try it out. You can't hand them back if you find that it's not your cup of tea.

Kids, I think are something you just have to take on faith.

Faith, remember is something you do when there is insufficient evidence to make an educated descision. I think that's what kids are about, you decide that you want them without any evidence either for or against. You won't really know if it's the right thing until you are there, you just have a feeling that it will be right.

And that's all you have to go on.

For me, it was enough. I love my son and I'm so glad he's here to enrich my world.

Where to now?

We have decided that we are soon to outgrow our little unit that we've called home for the past 3 years. But the problem is of course, where to now? We've been looking around and for Sydney, its a bleak outlook. Either move far away out west, away from family and work else buy something that is not fit for habitation.

Surely there must be a way somewhere inbetween? I'm hoping so. We all need somewhere to live but you would hope there are more options than that for someone with modest means.

We are meeting with the mortgage broker tonight to see what they can do for us. Here's hoping its something!