Loosing Touch

I felt a bit sad on the weekend.

Let me explain why.

On the weekend I was at a gathering of friends. At this gathering a long time friend was there with a new girlfriend. At least that was what I gathered. This is all cool and I'm happy for him but I felt like and outsiding coming into that situation which apparantly everyone else present was aware of.

And these people had known her also from previous times which I wasn't aware.

I guess I was feeling like I wasn't really part of this group anymore. I know this isn't really the case, these people are still my friends I've just not recently made the effect to hang out and do stuff that friends do.

It's all to easy for me to blame other things like distance and time but these are people that all willing to give up these things when call upon for me so I don't see thats really why.

Perhaps I feel these people no longer have time for me that I'm no longer important to them. But I also feel this is not the case.

The truth is harder than that. To be honest I'm just lazy. Sleeping in is better than getting up and doing things sometimes and doing things at home is better than going out and doing things.

Thus I end up doing little and going no where to the result that I don't see anyone (bar my lovely wife) and don't keep up relationships with the people that I would want to.

It's a sad thing when you loose touch with your friends. Things change yes but that's no reason to give up on your friends. It's all to easy to be lazy and not make the effort and hope that they don't do the same to you. If they do then it's all over and your left on your own.

So to those of you out there, I dont mean to do this and I want to change things for the better but sometimes life doesn't make it easy and sometimes we're predisposed to think of ourselves first before others.

So hey, I'll be looking to visit y'all sometime soon. Just you wait.


--
The Duff Man.

Some birds I met

What do you think of this pair? Both of them giving me the eye hey!

This is a photo I took ages ago, can't even remember when, out on my balcony one day where I found about 14 of these beauties on there hoping for a feed.

Of course I just took their photo and lef t them there. I mean I don't know what they were thinking looking for food at my place.

This was of course before I got married.

Just a little bit for you all. 

The structure of life

I often wonder what drives me to such different ends.

Ok I must explain. Often I am driven into a cleaning frenzy at home (or even at the office) which to me is out of character. Other times I am driven to lazy boughts of TV watching.

I feel like I am torn between the structure and routine side of life and the free form, do whatever kind of living. Yet I am at a loss to find a balance. Is there a balance? Am I talking total twallop?

I don't know. I just know that there must be a happy medium in the middle with just enough lazing around and just enough routine and order to make even someone like me happy.

I guess if we had choice we wouldn't do anything? Does that mean that it's choosing between what must be done and what is nice to do? Work and Play? Enjoying life and just getting on with it?

I guess our internal happiness depends a lot on how we feel about our lot in life. If there were no play and all work then you would tend to get depressed surely. If there were no work and all play I could imagine you would get bored quickly.

Work gives us a sense of purpose.

Play gives us a sense of selfishness.

Makes sense to me.